2 Nov. 2005
Wednesday
1:34:16 p.m.


I am getting tired. I never thought that it would be this difficult to hang on. A lot of times I feel like quiting the fight, like i wanted to give up. I hate where I am now...and I don't know where I am going or if there is really something that I could hold on to. The dilemma that I am in now is killing me litle by litle. It is paining my heart and f*cking my head. It's like history is just repeating itself. I am again, hanging out of nowhere, constantly standed! Sometimes I wanted to say so long til you make up your mind. Is this what love makes? Is this what love gives? I wanted to escape from this torture. I'm tired from waiting. All I wanna do now is break down and cry.

Gee Anna, don't worry all will be okay. Right now, what you need is to have a lots of relaxation. Go to a nice, quiet place where you can think of nothing except nice things. Have a retreat or something...or go to the beach. When you in a serence place, you can forget everything. Take a break from all the torture of your mind and heart. You need to have some time for yourself. This'll give you energy to face your big dilemma when you return.

Awww - sorry you feel so bad. Sometimes we think too much and then it all builds up. I agree with the above post best thing is to do something nice and relaxing. To try to stop thinking so much. It is not easy but you will see if you can take your mind off things you will feel some improvement.

Sending you good vibes and hope you feel better soon.

THE GENTLEST WAY MAY NOT ALWAYS BE THE CORRECT WAY
Best you get yourself a baseball bat, my friend !
Go, tap him on his right ear, with the bat of course...that should teach him to be nice..
You can try the left ear, if still not comforted....

thanks everyone! i've been quiet for a long time but it is nice to be back in circulation again. im feeling better now!